It was the beginning of month five when I felt it. Something was wrong. I described it as SO MUCH pain in my back, but really, there is no physical description of what I felt. What I felt was despair. A military wife, I went to the base hospital, where nurses ran tests. The heartbeat in the ultrasound gave me some relief, but the whispers of the nurse, followed by whispers of doctors with serious faces, took the relief away. My intuition was right. Something was wrong.